So much is happening at the moment, and I should be revising for a quiz tomorrow, but I've decided to post this new entry instead. The latest post had been quite depressing, and the situation in the K-pop fandom has been depressing due to the passing of two Ladies' Code members, EunB and Rise. Rest in peace, my condolences goes to all their love ones.
That's that, enough with the depressing stuff. Shall we move on to other things that had happened in my life?
First things first, I got a new laptop. Not that my old one broke down or anything, but I need a laptop which is light in weight, and has retina display in order for me to edit pictures and videos on HD quality. Of course, it's from apple.
Secondly, I won't be editing videos on the #SeekingSeoul2014 trip this week. There are two reasons to this;
1. I got caught up on something else.
2. I wasn't in the mood.
I wasn't in the mood to do anything, to be honest. With all the people passing away, and the midterm exams just right around the corner. Also, the Travelogue on day 3 will be up with the second day's video (maybe) next week, if nothing gets in its way.
Lastly, I am doing something very grand. Well, maybe not to grand for some people, but very grand for me, indeed. I can't say what it is right now, but it will be out soon, so please do look forward for that. This is also the reason why I haven't made a video this week like I said I would. And this is also the reason why I've only had 3 hours of sleep last night, and 5 the night before.
But I love this thing I am doing and I really do hope I became better at doing so.
I think I said something about a video called 'Rata tries to fashion' or something. I shelved that for now because, after reviewing it again after I've done planning, it's basically a video about me showing off my collections of designers' bags. I didn't want that connotation, so I won't do that video anymore. Also, the ice bucket challenge. I've decided to let my bunny Ashton do the challenge, and donate more money to ALS instead. I hope I cleared that up one way or another.
So ...
this has been another random entry, without any video updates or anything.
I question myself sometimes ...
Rata, what the Eff are you doing with your life?
And then I remembered I have an exam tomorrow.
This is me, taken just now.
This is from Saturday
at this S'more place in the city,
with Melody19 and Palayate20,
celebrating my belated birthday.
This is going to be my first entry in my mother tongue. I have realised that I suck at writing Thai, but please, bare with me 'till the end. It won't be long, and this does't happen often.
This entry is a tribute to Mr. Seub Nakhasathien for conserving the environment for us, even when he is not here to see the success. We owe you our lives.
Twenty four years ago, on the first of September, 1990, at the Huai Kha Khaeng Wildlife Sanctuary, a national hero sacrificed his life to rise awareness of the problems happening to the forest.
After leaving letters -stating all the problems and solutions after his death- for his subordinates and coworkers, Mr. Seub Nakhasathien sacrificed his life in order to save what is left of the forest in Thailand. Two weeks after, the Royal Forest Department gathered together for a grand meeting to discuss the solution to the problematic issue of illegal deforestation.
The act of illegal deforestation has been happening over quite a long period of time, under the awareness of the department, yet they are powerless against those companies with a large capital. To shine a light into this dark business, the public has to be aware of this. There weren't any news on this problem because no journalist would go into the area to investigate due to the fear of the invisible power from those big companies which harvests illegal wood for a living. The death of Mr. Seub Nakhasathien shone a light into this shadow, and rise awareness to this problem. When people became more aware of what is actually going on, they became reluctance to see this problem being unattended.
His death is also the start of the Seub Nakhasathien Foundation to conserve Thailand's national forests and wildlife. They are to protect all the greens in our nation.
I grew up listening to his stories from my mother, all the things he did for the country. I remember thinking to myself that he is, indeed, a hero. He doesn't need any shining amour, or any super power, all he has was his passion about his work. I admire him for that, being able to seek what he loves to do, and put a hundred percent effort into it, fighting with it until the very end.
There are times that I lost hope to carry on living, and his death prevented me from doing something stupid that I won't even be able to regret it because I would be dead. Mr. Seub Nakhasathien spent all his life protecting and developing the forest, but because of an unnamed power force of capitalism from big companies, he had to end his life. He did it to protect the forest he love from being distort without being aware by the public. On the contrary, I am twenty one years old and haven't accomplished anything, and is going for a worthless death in my bedroom because of some stupid decision that I thought it would fix my problem. If I was going to end my life, I should end it for something important that would change the world. Only then, I would be worthy to die.
His death was the spark of a bonfire which lighten up the darkest corner of the forest, illuminating all the illegal business that has been lurking in the shadows for far too long.
I wouldn't consider myself a conservationist, I wouldn't even consider myself as having a green thumb because everything I've ever planted died within two weeks of being born. However, it would be great if we could still drive out of the city for two hours, and still find a forest area to relax and let the mind flow with nature for a day. I love being among the greenness of trees and occasionally see wild deers walking by. It would be great to have a place to go to when you want to escape the madness of the city, all the artificial stuff.
I would like to say a big thank you to Mr. Seub Nakhasathien for everything he had done to protect the wild life and the forest, even when you are not here to see the success of your work. If you are watching over the country, or the greens, please know that we will protect the land the best we can, and that your death will always be remembered.
His proposal on making the Huai Kha Khaeng Wildlife Sanctuary a world heritage became successful, all because of him and his last proposal before he ended his life.
Lastly,
Your legacy shall be fulfilled, and your death remembered.
2014.09.03
- Rata Pengmeesri
PS: I know this is quite long, but his story means a lot to me growing up.
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How does it feel to finally be legal ?
The same, more or less.
Well, more to the 'less' part.
When you are .. i don't know, 17? It was cool to go clubbing with fake ids. It wasn't that cool anymore, now that you can use your own id because you are finally legal to go clubbing, or purchase alcoholic drinks.
Of course, now that you can finally do it legally, you have already done it illegally for a thousand times before.
Growing up is the source of all misery in life, in my opinion. As you grow older, you need to be more responsible for the things around you, not just yourself. Why do people have to relate growing older with having more responsibility ? I am 21 years old and I can't even cook to feed myself, let alone cooking for my brother, or mother, or friends.
I am a twenty-one years old Asian with no future, nor money, nor life.
If there is a place where fangirling would provide you food, please let me know so I know where to move after graduation. I am at a crossroad where theres no going back and the other three paths are under construction. This is f*ing depressing.
No depress September, that's what I'm going for, even though it doesn't even rhyme. No regret September seems like a nice thing to live by this month as well. Right.
As I was growing up, people around me are divided into two types; Ones who has realised I am 21 years of age, and is an 'adult', and ones who still believe I am 3 years old. The latter being my family members.
I was talking with my grandparents the other day, telling them my 21st birthday was just around the corner, and they were all like ....
"Did you just say 21st birthday? How is that even possible? Aren't you like 16 last year?"
.... I was 16 five years ago, grandma. I am sorry to break it to you.
The same thing happened when I told them I am graduating next year, and I have to apply for my masters. They thought I was still in Freshmen year. I guess time stopped when I was accepted into University, for them. I think the proudest thing I've ever done for them was that I got into one of the top 3 Universities in Thailand, even though it wasn't the faculty they wanted me to apply for.
Let me use this occasion to say all my gratitudes to precious people in my life.
- Mom, Dad, Grandpa, Grandma, Bro. I love you guys and I would be shit with out all of you. I know I wasn't that much of your ideal of a perfect daughter, but I am closer to that than a lot of girls out there, so please don't kill me if I wake up at noon on a saturday morning for lunch and then go back to bed. I know you are all worried for me, but I will live my life to the fullest. My life is the greatest present I'd ever get, and I promise I will make the best out of it. By all means, I have no intention to go bungee jumping off a cliff, or go swimming with sharks in the aquarium, please don't worry.
- My SIS 03 people (who will never read this because I know you guys too well.) I have been friends with you guys for ten, or more, years. I am forever thank you that we are still together. ObbSongPfMmEve, kay people, kay. Love you.
- My bunnies, thank you for letting me sit with you guys, even when I didn't wear pink on Wednesday. I am blessed to get to know all of you people, and spend a chunk of my life around you all. Thanks to Paris for introducing me to this blogging world where no one actually read my blog. Thanks to Ev for being my first friend in Uni. Thanks to Yuki for eating bamboos. Thanks to Yv for the time during the SeekingSeoul trip, which reminds me that I still have 10 more days to blog and vlog.
- Shi. I am counting down to the day you come back to meh. Our relationship for the past many years had been very complicated. It was on, and then it was off, and then it was on again. We fight a lot, we still do, even when we are both in our twenties. We fight like kids, most of the times. I love you.
- P' Opal is the best sister one could ever ask for. I am thankful for everything, and our friendship. Thank you for your support since the very beginning until now. Thank you for always be there for me in time of crisis.
- Melody is the complete opposite to P' Opal, and I don't know why am I still friends with her. All she ever does was 'Rata, I need you to translate this for me. NOW.' and I couldn't say no. She's majoring in English, but she needed me to translate all her work. Why are you even majoring in English ? Why are you in my thanks to.
- Baby L. Boo and Ashton 'Ash' Martini, thanks for being alive and healthy.
- Chocolate (RIP). I was afried, but I know you would support me whatever my decisions will be. You were always a supporter, and I am forever thankful for that. I remember the times when you used to follow me around the house, I thought you were scared of being alone, but the truth was you were scared of leaving me alone. The pain I felt when you passed away still lingers in my memory, but to erase it completely would be forgetting you. I thought I wouldn't be able to carry on without having you with me, but you wouldn't want me to do something stupid and waste my life. I am sorry for not being good enough. If I were a better friend, you would still be here with me. Memories of you are bitter sweet, yet I want to remember both the bitter part, and the sweet part. I do not believe in reincarnation, but I really do hope your soul went to a better place, if there is somewhere more than obviation.
Wow. We are getting real personal here, STAP!
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This has been another random entry, no wonder why people didn't read them.
I could just post my naked pictures here and it would even go viral. (jokes, btw)
I haven't been reading much lately, because I was soooo freaking lazy. And I got a new Macbook. It's a Macbook Pro with the new Retina display. I love it so much! Thank you Grandpa :)
And I got a new hair cut a couple of days ago, that's a thing.
Anyway, I've made a small video (featuring my friends and my bunny) of the first part of my birthday party.
It is very short and very briefly put together, I apologise for that.
For this week, please expect the 3rd day of the Seeking Seoul trip Blog.
Also, please look forward to the second part of my B-day celebration.
For next week, please do remind me that I need to get the second day's vlog onto youtube. I need to edit them and throw it to youtube. So, please wait for the third day of the Korea trip. Yippyy.
Ok. Bye.
Happy 21st Birthday Rata.
It was on the 1st of September, by the way.
It was also Thailand's Environmental day, so please go plant or hug some trees.
I am serious, please stop claiming the forest to build shit.
Oh, I just remembered. There will be a blog dedicate to Thailand's national hero, Mr. Seub Nakhasathien soon because he was my hero growing up.
