The same, more or less.
Well, more to the 'less' part.
When you are .. i don't know, 17? It was cool to go clubbing with fake ids. It wasn't that cool anymore, now that you can use your own id because you are finally legal to go clubbing, or purchase alcoholic drinks.
Of course, now that you can finally do it legally, you have already done it illegally for a thousand times before.
Growing up is the source of all misery in life, in my opinion. As you grow older, you need to be more responsible for the things around you, not just yourself. Why do people have to relate growing older with having more responsibility ? I am 21 years old and I can't even cook to feed myself, let alone cooking for my brother, or mother, or friends.
I am a twenty-one years old Asian with no future, nor money, nor life.
If there is a place where fangirling would provide you food, please let me know so I know where to move after graduation. I am at a crossroad where theres no going back and the other three paths are under construction. This is f*ing depressing.
No depress September, that's what I'm going for, even though it doesn't even rhyme. No regret September seems like a nice thing to live by this month as well. Right.
As I was growing up, people around me are divided into two types; Ones who has realised I am 21 years of age, and is an 'adult', and ones who still believe I am 3 years old. The latter being my family members.
I was talking with my grandparents the other day, telling them my 21st birthday was just around the corner, and they were all like ....
"Did you just say 21st birthday? How is that even possible? Aren't you like 16 last year?"
.... I was 16 five years ago, grandma. I am sorry to break it to you.
The same thing happened when I told them I am graduating next year, and I have to apply for my masters. They thought I was still in Freshmen year. I guess time stopped when I was accepted into University, for them. I think the proudest thing I've ever done for them was that I got into one of the top 3 Universities in Thailand, even though it wasn't the faculty they wanted me to apply for.
Let me use this occasion to say all my gratitudes to precious people in my life.
- Mom, Dad, Grandpa, Grandma, Bro. I love you guys and I would be shit with out all of you. I know I wasn't that much of your ideal of a perfect daughter, but I am closer to that than a lot of girls out there, so please don't kill me if I wake up at noon on a saturday morning for lunch and then go back to bed. I know you are all worried for me, but I will live my life to the fullest. My life is the greatest present I'd ever get, and I promise I will make the best out of it. By all means, I have no intention to go bungee jumping off a cliff, or go swimming with sharks in the aquarium, please don't worry.
- My SIS 03 people (who will never read this because I know you guys too well.) I have been friends with you guys for ten, or more, years. I am forever thank you that we are still together. ObbSongPfMmEve, kay people, kay. Love you.
- My bunnies, thank you for letting me sit with you guys, even when I didn't wear pink on Wednesday. I am blessed to get to know all of you people, and spend a chunk of my life around you all. Thanks to Paris for introducing me to this blogging world where no one actually read my blog. Thanks to Ev for being my first friend in Uni. Thanks to Yuki for eating bamboos. Thanks to Yv for the time during the SeekingSeoul trip, which reminds me that I still have 10 more days to blog and vlog.
- Shi. I am counting down to the day you come back to meh. Our relationship for the past many years had been very complicated. It was on, and then it was off, and then it was on again. We fight a lot, we still do, even when we are both in our twenties. We fight like kids, most of the times. I love you.
- P' Opal is the best sister one could ever ask for. I am thankful for everything, and our friendship. Thank you for your support since the very beginning until now. Thank you for always be there for me in time of crisis.
- Melody is the complete opposite to P' Opal, and I don't know why am I still friends with her. All she ever does was 'Rata, I need you to translate this for me. NOW.' and I couldn't say no. She's majoring in English, but she needed me to translate all her work. Why are you even majoring in English ? Why are you in my thanks to.
- Baby L. Boo and Ashton 'Ash' Martini, thanks for being alive and healthy.
- Chocolate (RIP). I was afried, but I know you would support me whatever my decisions will be. You were always a supporter, and I am forever thankful for that. I remember the times when you used to follow me around the house, I thought you were scared of being alone, but the truth was you were scared of leaving me alone. The pain I felt when you passed away still lingers in my memory, but to erase it completely would be forgetting you. I thought I wouldn't be able to carry on without having you with me, but you wouldn't want me to do something stupid and waste my life. I am sorry for not being good enough. If I were a better friend, you would still be here with me. Memories of you are bitter sweet, yet I want to remember both the bitter part, and the sweet part. I do not believe in reincarnation, but I really do hope your soul went to a better place, if there is somewhere more than obviation.
Wow. We are getting real personal here, STAP!
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This has been another random entry, no wonder why people didn't read them.
I could just post my naked pictures here and it would even go viral. (jokes, btw)
I haven't been reading much lately, because I was soooo freaking lazy. And I got a new Macbook. It's a Macbook Pro with the new Retina display. I love it so much! Thank you Grandpa :)
And I got a new hair cut a couple of days ago, that's a thing.
Anyway, I've made a small video (featuring my friends and my bunny) of the first part of my birthday party.
It is very short and very briefly put together, I apologise for that.
For this week, please expect the 3rd day of the Seeking Seoul trip Blog.
Also, please look forward to the second part of my B-day celebration.
For next week, please do remind me that I need to get the second day's vlog onto youtube. I need to edit them and throw it to youtube. So, please wait for the third day of the Korea trip. Yippyy.
Ok. Bye.
Happy 21st Birthday Rata.
It was on the 1st of September, by the way.
It was also Thailand's Environmental day, so please go plant or hug some trees.
I am serious, please stop claiming the forest to build shit.
Oh, I just remembered. There will be a blog dedicate to Thailand's national hero, Mr. Seub Nakhasathien soon because he was my hero growing up.
Stay tuned :)
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